I just don't know what to do anymore.
Not that I knew what to do in the first place.. xD I mean, I can't tell if I'm happy or not.
If I am, I don't know until I'm with him. If I'm not, I can't come to admit it.
(although I did finally admit that I wasn't as happy as I could be.)
But.. I don't want to let go.
It's stupid to think that I should just keep this up until he wants to end it
Because I'm waiting for him to make the next move.
I'll do whatever he thinks is best for us, even if it makes me feel like this.
"Why are you doing this to yourself?"
Because I...
I never told him that I love him and I don't know if that's good or not. I'm afraid he won't feel the same way. I'm also afraid that if he knows, he'll feel uncomfortable when he leaves me.
I've always known this wouldn't work out the way I thought it would.
I knew it from the day he started talking to me again. I really did.
But I didn't want to think that something bad was about to happen.
So I ignored that feeling I had.
And said "of course."
~It was there that he held me and I accidentally asked "..are you gonna ask me out?" He chuckled and said, "I was just going to." Then he asked me. The clock said 3:09, and I said yes.
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ReplyDeleteWhat I typed on txts that killed my thumbs.
They're like...nubs now.
Anyways:
I am so sorry that happened Bailey. You are AMAZING. LIKE SERIOUSLY AAAAHHHHMAZIN. You are so nice, you don't even cuss. EVER. And that is kind of un ordinary, but it helps make you YOU.
You are so so so pretty. Really. When you get older? There will be guys crawlin' at your feet. We'll be shoveling them off with bulldozers. You have an amazing sense of style and creativity. You can draw like, LOLWOAHWHUT!? yeah. That's a good thing. Trust meee.
I've had so many people see your drawings with me and go, woah! who drew that? And I say, Bailey.
(And not just Glenn)
You are talented like no other, really. You're good and eeeeverything you do. It's almost unhuman! You are SUPER BAILEY. |:
I dunno. You're a secret super hero, aren't you?
I really don't know how Chris can't see any of that, and what's more is he tried to CHANGE you?? That's just ridiculous! If he couldn't be happy with who you were, then be GLAD he's gone. You don't need him in your life. You weren't happy, and it was obvious the way you talked on here and how you talked in real life. You, of all people especially, deserve all the happiness that has ever existed in mankind (and womankind).
In a while, he'll relieze what a douche he had been and be "soooo sorry".
But really, he doesn't deserve you at ALL.
So all in all, just remember you have so many better people involved in your life, and there are many many better behaved, better personality, better looking and have better mindsets than Chris did.
It'll be okay. :)))
<3
Awwwhh. Thank you so much, Joyce! <33
ReplyDeleteI really do feel a little better, even though it's over.
And yeah, I'll find someone better. In due time. x3 Thank you. :)
^______^ Well I'm glad. Truth can help a tooon <3
ReplyDeleteHaha. x3 I'm glad you think all of that is true. C:
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